Dear Lord

Dear Lord,

I want to give thanks and sing praises to you.
Thanks, because u gave me very tough time in that 3 months holiday.
I cried in the night.
I scrolled down my contact lists.
One, two, three times.....
But I can't find any of them that I can press dial and talk whatever I want to talk...

I start to wonder and doubt.
I thought you love me Lord, but why? why u give me all these hard times...
Why you let your beloved child cried in the night and feel so helpless?

When the time I was so alone, none of my friends understand me, none of them know what am I thinking...I thought I have everything yet they will go empty one day by one day.
Who will stay by your side forever? Who will give you unfailing love? Who will promise they will love and care for you forever?

I went through the most negative thinking, I lived a life that was so messed up...
I started to do not recognize who I am, I started to lose myself...
What a fake smile, what a fragile heart?

Everything happens for a reason.
And now I knew.
If I did not go through those times, how will I know you are the one gives me unfailing love.
If I did not go through those times, how will I draw myself closer to you.
If I did not go through those times, how will I know who will be the one I should seek when I am in trouble.
If I did not go through those times, how will I know family is the one give you full support no matter who you are,
If I did not go through those times, how will I know how much effort I put in until I kind of lost myself.
If I did not go through those times, how will I know we should let go and move on.
If I did not go through those times, how will I know life is so fragile, world is so fragile and how will I learn to appreciate,
If I did not go through those times, how will I know that I should learn to love myself more.
If I did not go through those times, how will I know who are those can understand me and know what am I thinking.

If I did not go through those times, when...when will I grow up and be more mature?

If I did not cry in the dark, how will I know you are the light that dispel my darkness.
If I did not feel so helpless, how will I know that there are people who keep praying with me and for me? (Thanks guys, you know who you are ;) )
If I did not lost myself, how will I know how precious to be myself.

Dear Lord, thanks.!!! Thanks for giving me those angels who support me when I can no longer fly..!!
Thanks for your mercies and graces, so that I am here to shout to the people, You are my Lord!

Thanks. I give thanks and praises in Jesus most precious name, Amen!!

Life is fragile yet we have a solid rock to cling on. So, why you still fear?
His love is so precious, so why do you still be so sad if you lost something that is precious to you, what can be more precious than his love?

I know this is a long journey to step by step find myself back.
But, I am not alone in this path.
There's always rainbow after rain.
If you do not face the storm, how will you know how beautiful is the rainbow. =)

Thanks for telling me who am I.

心里的孩子

今天上课，老师问了一句话
会想你15岁到现在，什么东西依然没变？
我突然想不出什么是不变的。

心里突然很想举手问老师，
老师，不然你问下什么东西变了吧。我一定滔滔不绝，和你一一说出。

心情沉了下来。
 There is nothing unchanged,except god's love. 午餐的时候，我重复了这句话好多次。

这个没有什么的问题，牵动了我整天的情绪。
午餐时，我不知道为什么，我说了我的经历，我更不知道为什么  泪突然就流了下来。

这一刻我惊觉   心里还是有放不下的东西。
听了很多道理，朋友们开始紧张开导。
有道理，无道理，有道理。

我只是心里的孩子   闹了些小情绪，没事。哈哈

回到家，听了心里的孩子。
 破灭的美梦，一个又一个
虽然心很痛却还是微笑着
别人总爱说你长大了  不该待在幻想里面活着

本来的我们已经不记得

在心里的孩子   盼谁来讲故事   让不安失望暂时静止。

雷雨不来  又哪有彩虹呢？
能自我安慰是必修的课  不确定是变得随和  或放弃了原则


这个世界啊   这个世界  你脆弱得不可以

World is so fragile, everything is so fragile, who stay? what last?
Now I know I cried because I have not accept the fact that everything is so fragile!

喜欢她唱出的淡淡单纯的味道，虽然没有梁文音的经历很多，但或许我现在需要的是这样的声音   这样的力量也许是最好的安慰